The gift of stillness
I move and moved and moved
Then I stopped
I moved and moved
Then I stopped
And in the stillness
I realised all happening
The smiles
The bitterness
The fears
The hope
The music
The doubt
The love
And all that was me
I stopped
The course of my once great path
The action of the dream
From the dreamer
That was me
Then I saw the gift of stillness
The art in the making of business card of my youngest that she used as magic
Her then to be a business of CADURU as she calls it
Without a doubt I know it will materialise into something bigger than she envisages now
The softness and velvet of my oldest singing voice that make my heart stop in awe
My mums gift of ancient music that moves me to the core thus making me cry
Tears of joy and “nostalgie”
My brothers enthusiasm in his voice, his account of all these gifts some realised and other still trapped in him with a feeling that time is not on his side
With the hope of seeing the light of day eventually
The wisdom of my sister
The gift of her constant unfailing presence
The strength and observant gift of my young brother
The joy of my friend discovering the poet in her
When I stopped I discovered the whole universe in me
Waiting to be discovered in all the ones around me
The things around me
That when I am at the speed of actions realising the “dream”
That I miss!
Like my oldest now standing next to me
Wondering what on earth is mum is typing about, lost in?
I shared with her the first part my writing and she said: It is beautiful actually!
I asked her why did you come here, did you want to tell me something?
Yes she said, I came to see how you were, and I said: that’s kind
Then she said I also came to check your book about the emotion wheel
And here we spent a couple of minutes reading the wheel, exploring and in awe in what we discovered, her little sister eventually joined and then both siblings ganged up on me
This in a dynamic of perfect chaos like you wouldn’t believe it!
Now that they are out of the room, I may as well dip into these creative juices
That I hadn’t had or felt for a while
Being active and touching those milestones of a lifetime!
Now that I stopped
I am slowly but surely feeling the magnitude of it all
But this is not the time to digest all
This is the time to write
Follow my line of thoughts
As they slowly, naturally flow into my fingers
Into my laptop keyboard translating into words
A letter, then a word into sentences
And realising what is happening I smile
I am truly present, content
This is the power of stillness
The gift of stillness
That is mine in this moment
Yours
Marie-Claire Mimi Sunday 5th June 2022
